hellobijou

I was woken up to my mom taking things out of my room, calling me a selfish bitch, saying I should die a slow death, saying I should just drop out, saying she didn't want to deal with me, etc.

I wish I died in my sleep.

I’m loud.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My Appearance

I’m shorter than 5’5.
I wear makeup
I wear a piece of jewlery at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships

I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music

I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my home.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded. (I've never been "grounded.")

Hair

I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want/wanted dreadlocks.

School

I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed Science.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping.

I'd be better off dead.

If only.

I really love when my dad doesn't talk to me for four months except for a "thanks" that he replied with when I texted him a happy Thanksgiving and then just goes off to Florida. Especially with his disgustingly fake "wife." I mean, I barely talk to him and I really don't expect him to talk to me, but seriously? I need a fucking job and I'm underage. He's the only one I can work for. I need money badly.

Today just really sucked in general.

I ripped my pretty much favorite item of clothing ever. These boxers that I've had since I lived with my dad that one time in, like, sixth grade. Well, they were my brother's, I think. But they've been mine since then. I need my sewing machine to start working.

I really wish I didn't eat today. I managed to not eat until eight, but I ate. I feel disgusting.

I'm sick of my fucked up eating habits. I'll starve myself for a week and feel absolutely disgusting if I even think about eating, but then suddenly binge for a few days and gain back every pound I lose. I'm so stupid.

I took this survey where I had to name nine friends and I couldn't even name five. It was sad.

Just when me and my mom got along for about an hour, she ended up calling me a worthless asshole, a selfish bitch, etc. I can't really remember why.

I find my mind wandering towards suicide more and more, lately. Kimya Dawson easily wards off my stupid thoughts, though.

I really wish I could just skip these next three or four years, move to Olympia, and be happy.

I'm currently singing to Charles Manson, reading Dave's old blog posts, and wishing I wasn't alive.

I'm super-creeping.

Bold things that are true.
Leave things that are false non-bolded.

01. I have never kissed someone of the same sex.
02. I see a therapist.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness.
05. I love my gauged earrings.
06. I wear black eyeliner every day.
07. I am extremely influenced by kindness.
08. I love to write, even though I think I suck at it.
09. I can't live without lipgloss.
10. I’m probably emotionally scarred.
11. I lived in Tahoe.
12. I spend money I have.
13. I'll be in college for over 4 years.
14. I love designer handbags.
15. I’ve had a concussion before.
16. I’m not good with confrontation.
17. I loved the Backstreet Boys.
18. I have more than a couple horrible memories.
19. I'm addicted to Degrassi.
20. I’m spiritual… but not religious.
21. My first kiss was unexpected.
22. I start school on Jan 4th or 5th.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get very attached.
27. I am bisexual.
28. I have way too many pairs of shoes.
29. I've seen She’s All That at least 50 times.
30. I dress how I feel that day.
31. I love Charmed.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are ridiculously late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. Winter is my favorite season.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I believe that it is wrong to be gay.
40. I have a lot of drama.
41. No one really knows me.
42. I love my hair.
43. I sometimes fight with my parents.
44. I am passionate about my interests.
45. I have had the chicken pox.
46. I’m a hopeless romantic.
47. I feel empty sometimes.
48. I am/was clinically depressed at a point in my life.
49. I am addicted to coffee.
50. I am very outgoing.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I CAN BE VERY INSECURE.
53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken.
54. I hate ignorant people.
55. I love my laptop.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I’m extremely mellow.
60. I've contemplated suicide.
61. I hate cleaning my room.
62. I tend to get jealous.
63. I like to play video games.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person.
66. I'm a vegetarian/vegan/don't eat beef.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving.
70. I have a good sense of direction.
71. I love school.
72. I’ve played a musical instrument for more than 5 years.
73. I tend to feel inadequate.
74. I love kisses on the forehead.
75. I love the color blue.
76. I don't sew.
77. I am not addicted to drugs.
78. I wear contacts.
79. PRESIDENT BUSH IS A COMPLETE AND UTTER MORON. (He's not the president anymore, so yeah.)
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I don't take criticism well. At all.
82. Conformity is stupid.
83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive.
84. So is Conor from Bright Eyes.
85. I love my family.
86. I don't mind getting shots.
87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
89. I can be too hard on myself.
90. I’m probably going to have premarital sex. (Probably?)
91. I don’t like my nose.
92. I am very religious.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I am ridiculously indecisive.
95. I believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife.
96. I love music.
97. I’m in love. (Sadly)
98. I have problems letting go of people. (See above.)
99. I tend to think with my heart more than my head.
100. I don’t really like ice cream.

I really hate my entire physical appearance.

I feel unexplainably positive today.

I really hate hunger pangs.
I need to get out of the house and do something.

I'd like to just give in and die right now.

I can honestly say I'm not thankful for anything in my life right now.

I'm not even thankful for life itself.

This is the shittiest "holiday" ever.

Story of my life, LiveJournal, story of my life.

I wish I was with the guy I love.
I wish I wasn’t so ugly.
I wish I could control my damn emotions.
I wish I could just fall off the face of the Earth.
I wish I could fast-forward about three or four years.
I wish I was older.
I wish I wouldn’t let people get to me.
I wish I had the willpower to get up and do homework.
I wish I could get out of Schodack.
I wish I had good friends.
I wish I wasn’t so fucking jealous.
I wish I didn’t care about anyone or anything.
I wish I could just abandon everything and live on the street.

Copy and pasted from my Tumblr because I'm lazy.

I spent the night driving around with Mariah (because she finally got her damn license. We've only been dreaming of that day for ten years.), thinking about nothing but how lonely I've been lately. I ended up smoking last night, which makes me feel lame.

I really hate holidays. Fuck Thanksgiving. Celebrating the forced seizure of land by eating bird corpses. Awesome.

I really hope I can figure out ways to hang out with people. I have plans for once. I'll hopefully make to to Albany and see Dave, maybe.

I can't stop stressing over a lot of things that I can't say on here. I need a year-long nap.

My Truth Box comments really bother me. I can't think of anyone who would say half of the things I see in there.

I can't believe I ever loved you. You're a piece of fucking shit.
I at least know that is Angel. It's irritating nonetheless.

Fuck you guys, Gemma is one of the most interesting people I've ever met. Keep yo head up, G, don't let deez haterz get you down.
Really? I'm not interesting at all.

i really really love you no matter what anyone else thinks.
?!

i want you to fucking go jump off of a bridge, and hit shallow water. that will make it so much easier, knowing a pathetic ugly fuck isnt alive. ^.^
That makes two of us.


Anyways, I really have nothing of interest to write about. Not that anyone reads this thing.

Are you a couple with the last person you kissed on the lips?
Nope. Never.

Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now?
I'm living at home and going to school. Not much to really not expect.

Are you in a good mood?
I'm alright.

Is there anyone getting on your nerves at the moment?
Nope.

Are you wearing a ring, if so who gave it to you?
I am. I kinda accidentally stole it because I was trying it on at LarkFest and couldn't get it off. I didn't like it, though, so I just left the tent. Haha.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Watching Juno, I believe.

Are you a jealous person?
Extremely.

Do you remember the first time you kissed the 2nd to last person you kissed?
Yeah. The first and only time. Ew.

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
Yes.

When was the last time you talked to your best friend?
I don't really have a best friend.

Last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
The bus.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
Yeah.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
I missed Drew a lot.

Is anyone else in the room with you?
Nope.

What time did you go to bed last night? Why?
I fell asleep at four p.m. and woke up at five a.m. Then I went back to sleep around 10.

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
Not always.

Who was the last person in a car with you?
I'm not sure.

What will you do after this?
I have no idea. Probably take a shower and walk to Rite-Aid and see if my film's back.

Do you hate anyone?
I have no hatred.

Are you going out of town soon?
If walking to East Greenbush in an hour or so counts?

What's your recent drama?
I don't get into drama. I don't have enough friends for that.

Do you tend to get in fights?
Not really. They're pretty pointless as far as I'm concerned.

What are you thinking of doing right now?
I'm not sure.

Do you like the dentist?
Who the fuck likes the dentist?

What do you smell like?
I make my own citrus perfume. Fuck yeah.

Did you have a good day today?
If you consider laying around and watching movies and listening to Sonic Youth and talking to Drew good, then yes. Very.

What do you wish you were doing right now?
A lot of things.

What did you last laugh at?
When Drew called his grandparents' adopted kid "The leader of the black parade". That was the funniest thing I've heard in...ever.

Do you have any nicknames?
Off the top of my head; Yolk, Gem Gems, Gemon, Jenkins. I don't know why people do that. Haha.

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Drew. c:

Who is the last person who texted you?
Cody.

Is anyone protective over you?
Not exactly.

Have you ever had a stalker?
Yes.

Do you correct people when they make spelling mistakes on the internet?
Yes. I'm SUCH an asshole about it, too.

What's your favorite breed of dog?
I don't really have a favorite.

Were you single on your last birthday?
Yes.

Are you afraid to tell your true feelings?
Not usually.

Have you ever been cheated on?
Yes.

Are you waiting for anything?
You have no idea.

Are you happier now? Or were you happier 4 months ago?
I'm definitely happier now.

Ever been kissed under fireworks?
No. /:

When's the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
Today. Drew sent me this...monstrosity of a scene kid who called himself a musician. It was saddening.

Who do you text the most?
Probably Cody. Or Glenn.

In the past week, have you cried?
Yes.

What color is the shirt you are wearing?
Blue and black.

What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
"In a fucking second. Don't have a hernia."

If something was wrong, who is the first girl you would go to?
I don't have any close friends that are girls anymore. :\

If your best friend made out with your boyfriend/​​girlfriend,​​what would you do?
I don't have a boyfriend.

Who do you know that can make you feel better if you’re not feeling happy?
Drew, Cody, Steven, Glenn.

Do you like being kissed spontaneously or asked?
Asking would be weird and awkward.

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?
A few things.

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
Not really.

Have you ever met someone who is amazing?
Well, yeah.

Are your nails painted?
Ew. Never.

Ever kissed in the rain?
Nope. :\

Who's the first person that made you smile today?
Drew.

Where will you be 5 hours from now?
Not sure.

Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
Christ, no.

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Boxers.

What are you doing at 3:00pm tomorrow?
No idea. Probably Planet Fitness.

Waking up really early in the morning with the whole day ahead of me makes me feel so motivated.
I just watched Juno. Despite the fact that I hate how this movie introduced a bunch of little fucktard trendwhores to Kimya Dawson, I really like this movie. Everyone compares me to Ellen Page as Juno. Sometimes it pisses me off, sometimes I'm flattered.
I'm thinking I'm going to run to my grandma's house to get my bike and then ride it all the way to Planet Fitness in East Greenbush. I hate having to lie about my age there. I have to sign a bunch of shit stating that I'm eighteen and the whole time I'm there, I feel all paranoid that they're going to ID me or something. It's pretty nice getting away with eighteen, though.
I need coffee.
I miss Drew.

I can't stop singing to Mandy Goes to Med School and my mom won't stop saying I look like Janis Joplin.
People are starting to notice my losing weight. I've only lost seven pounds since Sunday. Maybe six. I'm not sure.

I'm so happy today. It's unbelievable.

I need friends. Friends that live around here. Friends that I actually like. Friends that I have things in common with. Friends that have interesting thoughts and experiences that they want to share. Friends that like art. Friends that like the music I like. Friends that I can talk about veganism and Atheism and activism and everything with.

Damn it, 518. Be cooler.

Are you ready for something personal? Why not?
Are you ready for something more personal? ...sure?
When you're single, is it alright to kiss random boys/girls? Well, yeah. If you want to.
How's the weather today? Cold and rainy. Lame.
When was the last time someone was mad at you? I'm not really sure.
Ever kissed anyone with the name John or Steve? Damn it, survey.
What are you doing? This survey, listening to Blink-182, and talking to Drew.
If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be? Drew. Always.
Have you ever slapped someone? Yes.
Name one thing you love about winter? It encourages cuddling and holding hands. I stole Kara's answer. It was right.
Does anyone call you babe or baby? Nope.
Do you think your wasting your time on the person you like? Not at all.
Do you have siblings over the age of 21? Yes. Kind of.
Do you think a lot before you fall asleep? There's nothing else to do and it's takes me forever to fall asleep.
Did you have a good day yesterday? Very.
Do you miss the way things used to be? Christ, this question. It's so broad.
Can you recall the last time you really liked someone a lot? I love someone right now, actually.
When was the last time you said you were okay but you really weren't? Umm...I was almost crying today when I was in some class and some teacher asked if I was okay.
Lip piercings on both sides of your bottom lip, disgusting right? It's not disgusting, but I think it's stupid and cliche.
What would you do if you walked in on the last person you kissed having sex? Just say some douchey remark, laugh, and leave, probably.
Ever kissed someone who was high? Nope.
What was the last thing you did before doing this quiz? Talking to Drew.
What would your parents do if you came home with a tattoo? Well, I don't live with my dad, so he wouldn't really see it. I'd NEVER show my dad if I got a tattoo. My mom, it depends on what mood she's in. If she's in a good mood, it'd probably just be like "Umm...how the fuck did you do that? Seriously?"
Ever purposely broken your iPod/phone just for a new one? No? That's kinda disgusting.
Do you know any boys who wear makeup? I know a few. I don't really like them.
Ever kissed someone with a tongue piercing? Nope.
Would you rather get your navel or nose pierced? I've had my nose done. I wouldn't pierce my navel.
The person you like runs up and kisses you, your reaction? I'd be confused and then happy.
Gotten high in the past 24 hours? Nope.
Would you get into a car with someone who was drunk if it was your only way of getting home? It kind of depends on who they are.
Has a friend ever made you extremely angry? Almost all of them.
Are your parents divorced? No. My parents were never married.
If you got kicked out, where would you go? New York City.
Would you clean up someone's vomit? Maybe.
Would you ever go to Japan? I want to go everywhere.
If any of your friends got kicked out, would your parents let them stay with you? My mom hates everyone. I'd feel bad for my friend if they had to live HERE.
Would you ever go see Katy Perry live? Never.
You're locked in a room with the last person who hurt you, what happens? I'm not sure who that is. I don't really remember.
Injured someone in the last week? Nope.
Would you get your feet tattooed? I think that's kind of pointless.
How many arguments have you had with the last person you dated? I really don't think we've had any arguments. We get along extremely well.
Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? Not soon enough. /:
Do you understand football? I really hate sports in general.
Is the last person you kissed mad at you? I can't imagine why he would be. We're cool.
The person you have the strongest feelings for dies, do you care? Of fucking course. I love him.
Have you kissed more than ten people this year? Not close.
Have you ever cried from being so mad? Yes.
Have you bought any new clothing items this week? Nope.
Your girlfriend/​​boyfriend buys you flowers, you say? I'm not with anyone.
Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it? Yes. c:
Do you toss and turn for hours at night or fall right to sleep? Toss and turn, usually.
Ever had a boy best friend? I actually don't think I've ever had a girl best friend. I usually don't get along with girls because they're usually either dramatic, materialistic, etc. I want a girl best friend, though.
What was the last thing you and your mom talked about? I was apparently being a douche bag. Cool.
Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends? I'd like any combination of those. Sleeping on the street with friends would be awesome.
Has anyone told you they don't ever want to lose you? Yes.
What's usually colder, your hands or your feet? My hands.
Do you want to get married? I already know I'm going to.
Do you know people that smoke weed? Yes.
Do you like the idea of promise rings in relationships? I actually think it's really sweet. Call it materialistic, but I'd find it really nice if someone gave me a ring. I'm not asking for a diamond ring. I'd appreciate anything. The cheaper, the nicer.
Was this the best summer of your life? My Summers tend to suck. Hard.
Do you think relationships are even worth it? Usually.
What was the most boring thing you did today? Idly sitting in Math, writing what came to mind.
Last kiss drunk or sober? Sober.
Something you do a lot? Breathe.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Yes.
Where would I have found you last night at 11pm? Sleeping, I think? Or talking to Drew.
Are you an alcoholic? Never.
Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now? Nope. /:

I woke up to see that I've lost six pounds and this on my iChat:

I don't know if you're on here, but, you'll get this at some point. I just wanted to tell you I love you, because I haven't said it at all today, and I wanted to. And that I'm counting down the days until I see you in March. I'm looking forward to that more than anything else I can think of
Arrivederci, mi amore, and have a good day :3

For waking up at 5:30 in the morning, I'm overjoyed.

I kind of just made this, so I have no idea what I'm doing. I start this journal off with an uninteresting meme just to prove to you that this is not worth reading.

At a movie theater, which arm rest is yours? I don't really have a preferred one.
What did you call your grandparents? I call my grandma on my mom's side Gram. I don't see my grandpa on my mom's side enough to really call him just one thing. Grandpa, gran, etc. I called my grandma on my dad's side just...grandma. Christ, I miss her. My grandpa on dad's side died before I was born.
What do you have handy at your bedside? A mess of books, candles, glasses, notebooks, pens, etc. There's a lamp somewhere in there, too.
Grilled or fried? I prefer baked. If I had to choose between the two, I guess I'd have to choose grilled. Fried things are so gross.
Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don't worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what's the one thing you're going to save from that blazing inferno? My laptop. Materialistic bastard.
What makes you unique? I don't think I'm unique.
Favorite TV commercial? Wilfred Brimley talking about diabetes. By far.
Virgin or not? Eh.
Do you like your handwriting? Not at all.
Do you still have your tonsils? I do.
Which are your favorite smells? Basements, old books, old furniture, farmers' markets, they way it smells in the morning when it was raining really hard the night before.
Does size matter? It'd be hypocritical to absolutely say no seeing as I'm fasting right now. But I really don't think size matters in anyone but myself. I'm just uncomfortable.
If you could own your own retail store, what would you sell? Well, technically I wouldn't be selling it, seeing as most things would be free. But I'd like to have DIY everything. Zines, vinyl, vegan foods, etc.
If you could get back any article of clothing you once wore, what would it be? I honestly can't think of anything in particular.
Which are the favorite sports you watch on TV? Never. Ever.
Do you prefer blondes or brunettes and why? Brunettes. I just don't like blondes as much. I mean, most Aryan guys are really attractive with long hair, but still.
Have you ever won a prize in a contest? In a contest, no.
What's the best compliment you've ever received? I'm not sure. I don't get those very often.
What's the worst advice you've ever taken? I'm not sure.
What talent do you wish you'd been born with? I wish I could draw.
What's the most spontaneous thing you've ever done? Good question.
How did you rebel as a child? This question made me laugh so hard for some reason.
What did you hide from your parents? I've hidden...everything. I mean, I can't imagine telling them anything. That'd just be odd.
Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? I apparently had sex with this really disgusting wigger. I'm really hoping that was a joke.
Ever had a drunken night in Mexico? No?
What's your favorite alcoholic drink? Eh.
Are you laid back or high strung? An annoying combination of both.
Dumbest purchase you ever made? Most purchases are dumb when you know how to properly shoplift.
What do you think will happen to you in 10 years? I'm honestly not sure. I'd like to be living...not around here. With this guy.
How many people have you slept with? Sex is so overrated. Seriously.
Whats your mom's PROBLEM? Fucking everything she can come up with. The sky being blue is her problem. The Earth being round is her problem.
Have you brushed your teeth lately? Yep.
What is more difficult for you; looking into someone’s eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel? It depends on how I'm saying it and to whom. If I'm anxious and talking to someone I really don't care about or if it's about something not-too-serious, I'm looking wide-eyed at them, talking obnoxiously fast.
Are you left or right eyed? I have no idea what that means.
What CD is in your CD-player right now? No CDs for me. It's either vinyl or digital. Nothing in between.
What would you want to be written on your tombstone? I'm not being buried. Never ever.
Is your middle finger longer than your ring finger? Yes.
The size of your hard-disc? I have no idea.
When you looked in the mirror first thing this morning, what was the first thing you thought? I was wearing underwear and a sweater and looking at a full sized mirror. Not good things.
Who is the fourth person on your missed calls? Some 800 number. I never miss calls.
What's a saying you say a lot? "Fuck."
Who told you they loved you last? Drew. :3
Last furry thing you touched? Kitten.
What is your guilty pleasure Disney movie? I was never really into Disney.
Without saying names, what's one thing about the last person you kissed? I can't think of anything to say that wouldn't give away who he is. I do not want that.
A kiss on the hand or on the neck? Neckneckneck, please.
Do you miss the way things used to be? I HATE this question. It's so fucking...broad.
If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? Honestly, no. I'm happy as is.
Wall paper on your cell? This menu that said "Chef Matt will toss your salad!" that Cody sent me to cheer me up.
Did you go to sleep smiling last night? For once!
How many pillows do you sleep with? Four.
Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? Someone else. :c
Is there anybody you wish you could spend time with right now? Drew. Always.
If you could, would you make out with the last person you kissed? Oh, no.
Do you think you and your best friend will be friends in ten years? I'm not sure who my best friend is, honestly.
Is there someone in your life you wish you never met? Too many people to name.
Are you scared to fall in love? I'm in love. Hard.
Do you think teenagers can fall in love? Anyone can. We do it more spontaneously.
Do you like the rain? Sometimes.
How was last night? Surprisingly good.
Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? YES.
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? Marijuana, I don't mind at all. Cigarettes? Ew. No thank you.
Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? I never really get along with girls. Not yet, at least.
Who was the last person you had an argument with? This fucking substitute teacher. She wouldn't stop staring at me.
What does your favorite pillow look like? White and...rectangular?
Whose hoodie did you last wear? Mine.
Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again? Well, yeah.
What's more important to you, keeping yourself happy or others? Others.
Would you rather run or walk? I want to start running again! :c
How often do you straighten your hair? Fuck that, man.
What are you wearing on your feet? Nothing.
Do you think a lot of people think bad things about you? People do not think about me.
Is there someone you used to talk to every single day that you don't talk to anymore? Of course.
How's your heart lately? A hell of a lot better, thank you.
Do you like hugs? More than anything in the entire world.
Do you want to tell someone how you feel? I did about a month's worth of telling how I feel in the past two days. Feels good, man.
Will you be in a relationship next month? No. /:
If someone is interested in you right now, would you like them to tell you? Not really.
How many hours of sleep did you get last night? Two.
Would you rather be called 'baby' or 'honey?' Honey. :3
How many pairs of shoes do you own? Three. But they're all old.
Ever been to Kentucky? Nope.
Are you thinking about somebody right now? Yes.
What was the last thing you ate?
Do you enjoy scary movies? Movies don't scare me anymore. I love horror as a genre, though.
Credit cards or cash? Cash. Fuck credit cards. Scam.
Why did the last person call you? To scream random insults at me and my fatness and hang up. I love people.
What were you doing at 6 o'clock this morning? Watching movies.
What are you listening to? I Want You by Bob Dylan.
What's the color of your eyes? Sometimes green, sometimes brown.
How do you feel right now? Hungry and tired.
Where is your cell phone, if you have one? My pocket.
Anyone mean anything to you? Everyone means something.
Do you consider yourself nice? Not really.
Do you get along with your best friend's boyfriend/​girlfriend?​ Again. Not sure who my best friend is.
Do you know anyone who's having a baby? Nope.
Who are you texting at this time? Nope.
Have you ever been called heartless? Several times.
Do you think you've made a difference in anyone's life? I was told so.
Name something you're doing tomorrow? School. I hate my life.
When was the last time you had Starbucks? No.
Are you ticklish? Extremely.
Do you crack your knuckles? Yes.
Who was the last person to give you a hug? Cailyn, I think.
Who was the last person to blow you a kiss? Nope.
Are you in a good mood? I'm alright.
Are you excited for something? Not really.
Is there someone you can trust 100%? Yes.
Last person you said "I hate you" to? Angel. In my mind, though.
Will you talk to the person you like tonight? I already did.
Do you miss anyone? Of course.
What was the first thing you thought this morning? I didn't sleep last night. So the morning wasn't really...you get my point.
What were you doing at 7am this morning? Making coffee.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more? I have.
What was the last thing you said to your dad? I haven't had a legitimate conversation with him since around August.
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it? Duh.
Is there someone you don't ever want out of your life? Drew.
Have you ever found someone you really really really liked? Yes?
Is anyone else in the room with you? My kitten.
What did you do last night? I crashed on my bed as soon as I got home from school and slept until around ten.
Are you a jealous person? Extremely.
Did you speak to your father today? Nope.
Would you date a 13-year-old at the age you are now? No.
Are you wearing something you borrowed from someone? Nope.
Any summer plans for 2010? Traveling, traveling, more traveling.
Do you like voicemails? They annoy me, actually.
When was the last time you flew on a plane? When I was, like, nine.
When is the next time you'll fly on a plane? No time soon, probably.
How often do you drink energy drinks? No.
Is Redbull your favorite energy drink? If I must.
Do you wish you had an older, protective brother? I have an older brother. He has moments.
Are you keeping a secret right now? Always.
If you could change your eye color what would it be? Gray.
Ever been cheated on? Yes.
How much longer until your birthday? Too long. Way too long.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Yes.
Who was the last person you saw, other than family? Whoever was on my bus.
Will Friday be a good one? I hope so.
Could you go out in public looking like you do now? I don't really care right now.
Have you told anyone you loved them today? Yes.
You’ve locked yourself outside and no one will be home for a few hours, you? Sit there and wait?
Kiss anyone today? No. :c
Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes? Liars. A lot of them.
Did you ever have braces when you were younger? Nope.
Are you a good cook? I try. I prefer baking.
Tell me three things about the last person you kissed? Ugh.
When will you next kiss the person you like? I wish I could tell you.
When was the last time you went in the car? I'm not sure.
What's the song you hear right now? Waste of Paint by Bright Eyes.
When did you last hold someone's hand? I'm not really sure.
Can you say you're happy? Half of me is.